Here is where I am

ok - I just gave birth NATURALLY at home almost exactly 36 hours ago.

Here is what I look like - remember baby # 7.....


and a front view....





Here is my weight *** 245 ***

Here is my thoughts-- I know I so dont need to be worring about my "figure"? right now if you could even call it that but I have had a REAL hard time these last few years with my body image. I could honestly care less what other people think but I am uncomfortable in my own skin. It has sank me down into a depression that is hard to deal with some days and trips my fuse like a bolt of lightening.